Having a hard time adjusting to a stationary lifestyle

I have been living/staying in Santa Cruz for about two and a half months now since I returned from traveling. Already, I am having a tough time adjusting to a stationary life. For the six months I was traveling in Mexico and Central America, I never once stayed in one place for more than three weeks. This is why I wanted to slow the pace and settle down for a bit. Once I found a place to live, I started thinking about going back to school and finding a job etc. You know, all the things that normal people do. Well this brought me back to the same problem I always had: I can't get a good job that I really want until I go to school, and while I'm going to school, I will need to work 30 hours a week at shitty job just to be able to pay $700 a month for rent. And then I can hopefully take vacations IF my job will allow for it. And I have not been writing much since I've been back. I just don't know if this is the type of life I want to live.

I would rather live an exciting life, moving around from place to place, working different jobs all over the world, writing and taking lots of photos, meeting interesting characters and having all sorts of adventures along the way. This was my dream, but somehow the dream has been derailed along the way. When I was traveling, I felt as though I had a purpose and my journey was important. When I am here, I just feel as though I am some guy, once again lost and trying to find his way, with nothing to show for his twenty-four years of living on this earth.

I just bought a truck, so we will see where this truck and this life will take me...

New Travel Knife

Blade open

Blade closed

My old knife was either stolen or lost a little while back, so it was time to pick up a new blade. This is the type of knife that I have found, from my own personal experience, is good to travel with. Here are the reasons that this is a good travel knife:

1) Cheap. Can be easily replaced if stolen or confiscated by police, security, etc. (This knife cost me about $12 from Ace Hardware)

2) Medium-sized blade...not too big, not too small. Good for many different purposes, such as chopping food, carving wood, cutting coconuts, and also as a weapon.

3) Lightweight/flat. Not too heavy or bulky to carry in pocket.

4) Buckle clip. In case you prefer to carry it on the outside of your clothing.

The only thing I can think of that would make this knife better, was if it was a switchblade (blade that flips open). This would make it a better knife for self-defense if your life was ever threatened.

One month to make a decision

I have exactly one month, until the end of August, to make a decision. The decision I must make is to either settle down again temporarily and go back to school, or hit the road again and continue with my nomadic lifestyle.

I am subletting a room in the house I am at right now, and I must be out sometime around the beginning of September. School begins August 31st.....and so does Burning Man. If I stayed, I would need to find a "normal" job, and try to be happy living a stationary life, with the occasional travel excursions. Or...try to make and save as much money as I possibly can within this month, and then head out. If I choose to do this, I am forcing myself to work at least 5 days a week, and in my spare time, I want to finish my TESL certification course.

Big decisions to make...